I don’t know if I’m telling tumblr to stop me or not, I actually mostly hope for the response “it’s okay if you do it once, just not as a habit.” It’s been just over a year now since I’ve self-harmed, I have a tattoo on my arm to remind me there was a moment where I was okay, but I’m so overwhelmed and I’ve tried everything and all I want is just to bleed just once. that’s it. I know it’s been a year, but that’s not relapse right? Once is just a lapse? I’m shaking it’s so bad. Just once. I guess this is a confession, or me typing my thoughts out until I come to a decision, and I think I’m going to, if I can find something sharp enough, my knife is missing, but I think I need it right now. That isn’t bad right? Does this make me a failure? Does this make me a bad person?
Dear Mr Sun,
I mean it’s cute and all that you let your emo girlfriend come out longer in the winter when it’s cold and gloomy like she likes it, “you die every night to let her breathe” yaddy yaddah, but the thing is, once she comes up I just wanna go to bed. So unless you intend on shortening…
Can this get like a million notes..I dont get why there aren’t any..